the silence of my screams

God has answered my prayers. But it was after all the craziness that i realized that He did.

after I freaked out. after I was not able to grasp reality. after I tossed and turned. after all the akwardness. after the screaming and the shouting. after everything...

now I ralized that He answered my prayers. but I was not ready for His answers. I thought I was, but I wasn't.

I really don't know His plans...I don't know anything.

but if I trust God, whatever I have now doesn't matter.

things are beyond my control.

the truth is, things should not be my control.

Lord talaga, lupit ng humor eh.

ladies and gentlemen, the rollercoaster ride for this sem has begun.

ito yung lyrics ng kanta na nagmi-minister sakin ngayon...original song siya ng HIGHBEAM...entitled PRODIGAL...


I DON'T KNOW WHERE TO GO
BUT YOU ARE THERE TO LEAD THE WAY
AND I CAN'T SEE TOO FAR AHEAD
GO BEFORE ME, HOLD MY HAND...


whom shall i fear? what shall i fear?

God is sovereign...He is in-control..

waaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


wala lang. grabe lang ang mga pangyayari sa buhay ko.

i praise God for everything.

i praise God for the unending grace

i praise God for every moment.

un lang.

hayee!! grabe ang bilis november na kagad, maya-maya december na at syempre anong meron pag december...malamang! birthday ko na!!!

anyway, musta na ba ako? napakameaningful ng sembreak k. kahit na halos lahat ata ng plano ko eh di natuloy, ginwan naman ako ng mas maganda at mas masayang sembreak ni Lord.

ngayon lang ako naka-experience na habang ngaliligpit ng plato at nakikinig ng praise and worship songs sa walkman eh umiiyak. isa pa. habang pinapakinggan ko ung tape namin para sa christmas cantata, naiyak din ako.

hindi dahil sa nahuhurt ako sa mga kanta.

naiyak ako dahil sa sobrang pagmamahal ni Lord di lang para sakin pero para sa lahat. naiyak ako kasi maraming tao ang hindi nararanasan at ang nararanasan ko, higit sa lahat sobrang dami pang tao ang di alam ang puso ni Lord para sa kanila.

kung alam lang nating lahat: grabe yung grace Niya, grabe yung love Niya, grabe yung kaya Niyang ibigay kung willing lang tayo i-seek Siya ng buong puso. kayang-kaya Niya tayong baguhin, kayang-kaya Niya tayong mahalin na wala na tayong hahanapin, kaya Niya lahat..at gagawin niya ang lahat para sa atin..

kung di ka naman maiyak sa mga bagay na yan..ewan ko na lang.

hay...see you next sem!

lord, paano Niyo po kaya isusulat ang buhay ko next sem??

exciting to!!!

Deuteronomy 29:29

The secret things belong to the Lord our God, but those things which are revealed belong to us and to our children forever.


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I am trusting my all-knowing God for the unknown future.